So Anxious

Let me start off by saying I am loving the progress I am making in my quest for fitness. On Tuesday I hit the gym for my recovery day workout and I went to a part of the gym that seemed so far away but so close at the same time. The weight room. This is where they go HAM and cheese in the gym. I was intimidated as hell but I felt confident on that day. Hell, I'm a runner....I belong over here. The environment was infectious. I began to push myself harder and when it was all said and done it was one of my best workouts since I was in my 20's.

I am up late tonight because I am having a special visitor this evening. Can you guess who it is????? J. I am feeling giddy. Even though it's been a few weeks I have been missing him like crazy. I came across something about sportscenter and I began to think about the warm cocoon like feeling I get at his house. ESPN in the background, Pandora on and off, humorous conversation.....it feels like such a safe space.

I want to go on record that I denounce Basketball Wives. The shit is getting old. The last three episodes were just everyone fighting and having meetings about who said what. For women who are supposed to be so accomplished and busy they spend a lot of time on idle bs. It's just become exhausting to watch them.

Well off to catch up on some TV while I wait for J.....it will certainly be a late night and early morning :)