Tuesday, November 20, 2012

Pay it Forward

Today was a comedy of errors to say the least. As I was going about my daily "mom duties" of getting the kids and myself out of the house, I lost my balance (I was wearing heels AND carrying Chunk) and I took a pretty bad tumble. I went ahead to work, thinking the pain would subside. My right foot only hurt briefly, but my left began to hurt more and swell. By the time I arrived at my office I could not put any weight on my left foot at all. Long story short my ankle is sprained and I was told to stay off of it for 48 hours. Here comes the hard part: I am a mother. A single mother at that. Who was going to make dinner and give my youngest a bath. How would laundry get done? I took a moment to think about what I say to people ultra married to their careers. The job will be there when you get back. For me this means the laundry will still be there, Miss Beasley bathed Chunky and I was able to make a meal that was satisfying and nutritious. If I am not healthy then I can't be the best mom I can be, so it's best to take it easy the best way I can.

Thanksgiving is approaching and I can't wait to see all of my family together. We are small in number but big in love. I fuss about them sometimes but I wouldn't trade them for the world!

Speaking of Thankgsiving, I flashback to this time last year when J and I were on very early stages of our relationship. I thought it was cute how he shared his plans (Going to see a Prince Tribute band) and updated me on his Thanksgiving activities. To be honest it was his message to me inquiring about my blog hiatus that prompted me to write a post that day. What a difference a year makes. Things aren't that bad but he gave me some info to let me know I may not be the one. He was straight up and told me he didn't know if he could deal with all my "extra." Ouch. I know now that need to pull back a little because something about that message, gave me the inclination that long term with me may not be something he can deal with and you all know I live for reciprocity. I don't want to get hurt, so I just need to keep those words in mind.

The New Year is coming up and I have a few small freelance assignments I am pursuing. The thing I am most excited about is my recent opportunity to Volunteer with the Woman's Alliance in Washington, DC. This weekend I watched a move titled, "The Other City" and I was blown away. The story that touch me most was that of J'Mia Edwards, a 32 year old single mother living with HIV. I found her story so touching because she is a single mother and I can't imagine how hard that can be especially when you battling disease. So instead of sitting my perch and saying, "How dreadful," I decided to get out there to urge women to practice safe sex and explain all the options available.

Well it's time for me to get some sleep! xoxoxo

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