Tuesday, February 28, 2012
The next day we went to the outlets and met up with J. I remember waiting outside of Spa'riffick while waiting for Miss Beasley, scanning the crowd for J. When I spotted him, my heart lit up like I was 18 years old. Our eyes met and we hugged and said our hellos. Even though it had only been a few weeks my body just tingled from feeling that new but familiar embrace. We walked around the mall with the kids joking, and talking about hip hop. The kids seemed to like him and that was a good thing. We said our goodbyes in the parking lot. We hugged and exchanged a few warm innocent kisses. I like him y'all :)
While I was there, I also got to see my God Brother who I'd never met. We talked on the phone a few days prior and it was like we had known each other all our lives. We talked about our dreams, fears, and things that have happened to us in the last three decades. It was even more amazing to meet him in person. It felt like we have the same energy, some things he'll never have to explain because I already know, if that makes sense. We bonded over a delicious breakfast made by my God mother. I will certainly make it a point to see him anytime I'm in town.
I'm still studying for my CCNA and the material is sticking in my head now. Every time I want to quit I start visualizing and I get back to business. It grind time, so laziness and procrastination can't live here!
Monday, February 20, 2012
There is one caveat in starting something new with someone after riding the heartbreak train for a decade. You become fragile and paranoid. J has been a little quiet, but I know why and that's fine. Remember that anxiety I posted about earlier? It's back. Somehow it found its way into my happiness and whispered, "You're not worthy enough" "He's gonna do you just like ______." I am going to have to find a way to shake those thoughts because they are in the way!
In other news I FINALLY understand the networking material!!!! You all do not know how many times I read that stuff over and over trying to understand and last night it just clicked. It was an amazing feeling and it gave that push to keep going. It made me excited because this could put me in another lane financially. So I have now started dedicating all my free time to studying.....I need this CCNA cert so bad I might cry (no Ghostfaced lol). xoxoxox
Thursday, February 16, 2012
I have to share the shenanigans that I participated in this weekend. If you have seen me on Facebook you saw I was sporting some wet and wavy action. That was a half wig I had since my hair was too short for a sew-in. Since I was going out of town to see J I was nervous. What is sexy about pulling off your hair at the end of the night? You might when you've been together for a minute. What we have is kinda new so I did not want to pull a "I'm Gonna Get You Sucka". So I kept the wig on. All. Weekend. It was so oppressive. So today while we were talking I came clean and told him about the wig. Turns out he likes my short hair. I could tell because the wig seemed like it was in the damn way during cuddle time. It was nice to be honest and even better to not be judged.
I am starting to lose steam in my quest for my CCNA cert. I have so many outside stuff going that I feel like I'm not catching on. So Monday night I made a dream board. I cut out pictures of what I dreamed my life would be like. There's pictures of a married couple in front of a huge home, a beach in Costa Rica, and much more. I have to do this. I know if I just do what needs to be done everything else will fall into place. This is not the time to fall off...victory is in reach and Miss Page is claiming it!
Speaking of studying, time to get back to it! xoxoxo
Tuesday, February 14, 2012
Monday, February 13, 2012
Sunday, February 12, 2012
- Don't try to blog via cell phone when you have had three glasses of ciroc red berry and are full of giddy, school girl excitement. It's just a bad look. I woke up the next morning horrified at the flowery run on sentence I posted lol.
- Dominoes is the shit! J taught me how to play, and I love it! It's a game of strategy and I love games like that. When I got home, I went to wal-mart and bought some dominoes to play with Miss Beasley. It seems like something she would like too.
- I have officially became better with my money. While J and I were shopping I was tempted to buy a pair of True Religon jeans and after thinking about it, I came to the conclusion that jeans are jeans and I did not need those jeans
- Peruvian chicken is crack. Before I tried it I couldn't understand the hoopla, but i understand now.....so juicy and flavorful! They need one of those places here!
- As much as I bemoan my babies, I start to miss them when we are apart. This morning I woke up and began to miss Chunk's little voice and Miss Beasley's hugs.
- Ciroc Red Berry will get away from you......if you let it!
Friday, February 10, 2012
My mini vacay has begun and it started off on the rough side of the mountain. I left work at 4:20, and I didn't get to J until 9:00. It only was supposed to take that long. I spent two hours sitting in the tunnel. I hate traffic..with a passion. It was certainly a test of my patience.
When I got to J's it was like we never missed a beat. He took me to experience my first taste of Peruvian chicken. It was delicious!!!! I really fell in love with the rice and yellow sauce! For the rest of the night we talked and made jokes....the rest of the night.....was everything...and I'll leave it at that...we went running this morning and he made me breakfast tacos this morning.....it was everything!
Well I'm off to do a little shopping while I'm here and hopefully get my
history fix in! xoxoxo!